My doctor's appointment went pretty well this morning. I was making the usual awkward small talk and asking her some questions and she said something about how Quest for diabetic supplies was pretty good. The visit was a good distraction while it lasted! I have to admit I was only half-listening to any given thing she was saying, though. I've spent the entire day from the moment I first woke up worrying about this date I have later tonight! I will do almost anything to get out of the awkwardness of a first date. That's why I haven't been on one in such a long time. I've been asked out a number of times and I just couldn't bring myself to do it. Even if I really liked the person! I think the last breakup was so hard on me. I just wasn't ready to put myself through all of that. I had to let go of a number of potentially good relationships because I just needed more time. I'm so nervous about tonight because I want it to go well. I feel there's something different about this guy. I refused him a couple of times, but he was just so sweet and compassionate about it. He seemed to know why I was saying no. I didn't have to say a word. I admire that he didn't give up on me.